Tap-tap, tap-tap
How grateful I feel to have time when just the sound of loom resounds in the room.
Before my daughter was born, I had been able to weave as much as I wanted without worrying about time.
If I wanted to continue, I turned on the light even in the middle of the night and kept on going tap-tap tap-tap.
But I can’t do that anymore.
I have come to realise that it is not so easy to secure the time for weaving as I normally did before.
After my daughter, who will be three soon, was born, I put my priority on taking care of her, and I sometimes felt impatient at myself for not being able to dye and weave as I wanted.
In the hope of doing work in some way, I asked my husband to look after our daughter, or sneaked out of the room to the workroom while she is taking a nap or sound asleep at night, or even did weaving by carrying her on my back.
However, it was not very easy for me to adjust my mind to align with the intermittent time and I was especially having a hard time weaving kimono textile which is a long haul like a full marathon.
But the time will solve that kind of situation.
My daughter is now able to play freely on her own even without her mother, and I have become more used to adjust my mind and able to weave undisturbed.
Tap-tap, steady, Ima dekiru koto wo*
The sound of the loom can be heard like that.
On the other hand, I feel nostalgic when I think back the heavy weight I felt on my back while I was weaving.
*Tap-tap Tan-tan Ima dekiru koto wo: the sound of the loom (tap-tap, tan-tan) followed by “do what you can do now (Ima dekiru koto wo)”